Ya it certainly feels that way sometimes, doesn’t it? I can recall many a time I walked through NYC, of all places, feeling more alone than ever. For a city of millions I must say it can be one of the loneliest. Why? Many reasons I suppose but perhaps one is, when you move somewhere new and you don’t really know anyone yet.. the more people around you the smaller you feel. Its not quite the same feeling you get when staring into the ocean from the beach at night, or contemplating your absolute tiny self in the huge universe (even though they call this place the center of the universe). No its not quite like that, but similar. I came here as a result of an ongoing daydream and because I have the drive of someone who likes to frequently jump into the deep end and learn how to swim.. fast… I don’t do it on purpose it just happens that way more often than not.. anyway my point to this rambling was if your feeling down today please try to cheer up, because for every crappy day there are a 100 (at least !) good/nice/wild/fun ones, right? Also because as I’ve learned, like many, you can never tell the future, just go with it and give it your all and if your especially lucky you’ll have some truly close and loving people around you and a lot of good stories to tell. There are many different definitions of success but I’d say living life how you envisioned it to the best of your ability amongst the dwellers of this crazy world, and sometimes (aka all the time) you gotta make your own world, a haven for ideas and adventures. Open up your heart and eyes and take it all in -but- protect your heart fiercely just the same, like an exotic rare bird in a cage, it can still fly but the outside world has a little less access to its beauty, save that for the right ones Oh, you’ll know <3
P.s. “Anyone who lives within their means suffers from a lack of imagination.” Oscar Wilde
Jesus Saves. I $pend.
I went imaginary shopping for my home and here is what I bought:
*Gibson Girl parfume bottles
Wall Hooks (these remind me of the helping hands in the tunnel the main character in the labyrinth falls into)
A drink ! (Shot Glass)
Bowl (My future dog or cat will eat from this)
Night Light (a solar or battery powered jar that mimics lightning bugs)
I have lusted after Sputnik lamps forever, the ornate black and white items go into my love for dark and vampiric looking (victorian gothic) things, the multi-colored chandelier would go somewhere in a place near the garden (an outdoor seating area or sun room) because I have also always wanted an Alice in Wonderland garden, I’ve been collecting things for it for years (tea cups, statues etc)
Treat Bags/Party Bags
A side table (for future Alice in Wonderland room)
Frame (to hold something lovely, I would have others in different colors sizes along with lots of candles! Goes with the victorian gothic, think dripping wax and Beethoven)
Clock (I don’t know where I would put this but it would go somewhere)
Summary: A 1950’s style kitchen (simple and not too kitschy) because it just makes sense and its fun. A victorian gothic-esque living room (think dark wood/curves/waves/candles/sexxxxy) An art deco/old hollywood style boudoir (bedroom). An Alice in wonderland themed garden and outdoor area (or sunroom). That in a nutshell with very little detail, comprises my daydream house I’ve always wanted. What kind of theme or decor do you favor/have/want ?!?
Today I enjoyed a much favored past time on a Sunday almost afternoon… the art of brunch! I met up with a few lovely lady friends and ate my last real food for the next few weeks as I will be starting my cleanse tomorrow (I was not supposed to eat any of this 24hrs prior so I broke the rules already basically(no caffeine, heavy carbs, etc just light meals aka healthy stufff) .. but just LOOK at these items and I’m sure you would have done the same…
Siberian Suntan: A Vegan White Russian topped with cinnamon with a slight tropical twist, interesting flavor mix
Chocolate encrusted french toast with pasilla and cinnamon maple syrup
Afterwards we went to a local health food store and bought some goodies and I spotted this babeh on the street, notice the “hood” ornament. Now I am home cleaning up and waiting for my delivery of the joulebody program to show up… Hope your Sunday is as relaxing as mine has been so far!
I used to want to be Peter Pan, and if not Peter Pan certainly one of the Lost Boys running wild in the woods with a mess of hair and a wooden sword shoved into a makeshift belt, whooping indian calls with feathers in my hair and dirt under my nails, not to mention being able to fly. Who am I kidding? I still want all that, just fly towards the second star to the right and straight on til’ morning.Who wouldn’t want to live here!?
Not to be a Debbie Downer but a few if not a lot of questions have plagued me from time to time since I settled into Ny…
I am close with many people in my family and friends that I left behind in Michigan… at least I hope none of them feel I “left” them… anyway… I just saw an opening in the road to fulfill a long time daydream of mine and decided to take the chance. So far besides having a ridiculously nice apartment just fall into my lap as well as an amazing job/opportunity (not without much hard work of course) I do feel I was led here for one reason or another and I haven’t quite figured what that reason is yet. I miss my cousins (aka the closest to siblings I will ever have or want!) badly, my parents and best friend(s). I struggle with thoughts of feeling bad for not being around or participating more in their paths of growing ever taller and older. I am not sure when I will be done with N.Y. … I never had a plan here, I just came.. jobless with little money and only a guarantee of a room to reside in, the rest I figured out along the way.. I’m still figuring it out. I am from time to time restless in thought and body.. I am a traveler at heart; an adventurer; a risk taker; (not always good) and I doubt that will ever wane from me. I always seem to learn the hard way (unintentional!) and dive right into the deep end, sink or swim. I can only hope this path leads somewhere on the up and up. Progress, thats all. At this point I am at the “What’s next?” and it feels slow and dragging. I aim to stay positive however and I generally am… I think a vacation is in order as soon as work allows. I need some space. Home is absolutely where the heart is. Where and who is your home?
I made this today, it’s in some of my favorite color combinations as well as incorporating french graffiti artist Fafi… also do you like to roller skate?? Your never too old for the roller rink! Check out Moxi Lolly Roller Skates and this lovely Detroit based artist that now resides in Coney Island… she also loves roller skates. Lola Staar Dreamland
So its still the beginning of the week… ah well, never too early to daydream. After all, dreams do come true!
Cape May is a peninsula and island (divided by a narrow channel); the southern tip of the island is the southernmost point of the state of New Jersey,United States. It runs southwards from the New Jersey mainland, separating Delaware Bay from the Atlantic Ocean. The cape is named for Cornelius Jacobsen Mey, a Dutch explorer who was working for the Dutch East India Company.
The city of Cape May is located on the island (south of the peninsula) and home of the oldest seaside resort in America, with historical roots dating back to the 18th century. The entire city was designated as a National Historic Landmark on May 11, 1976, and many of the buildings throughout the town are original Victorian structures that have been maintained in pristine condition.
This past weekend I went to Cape May to visit friends that are moving away ! They’re in the Coast Guard and moving to Puerto Rico… so a last hurrah we had. Among going to bars, delicious breakfast places (Sweet Potato Pancakes with Apple Cinnamon Butter!! Side of Bacon of course) and watching Harry Potter… we went to the cute little town of Cape May and did some off base (aka coast guard base where they live) shopping and ice cream eating. I love little sea side towns like Cape May because I’m a beach bum and the colors of summer are so beautiful (I also favor Fall). Not to mention its a different pace, laid back, warm, breezy, sweet.
We had orange creamsicle twist cones (Sadly I did not take a picture) and bought matching rings…
“Well behaved women rarely make history.” -Eleanor Roosevelt
Fitting for both of us, I believe, because of where we came from and our life styles of moving to your own beat.. no matter what other people think *cough* JUDGE *cough* we are very much rogue individuals. Or at least I’d like to think so…. (= Anyway I got to go on base,see the town and spend time with some really lovely people over really tasty food. For your enjoyment (and edu-ma-cay-shun) a closing picture of women who behaved badly.
** Cheers ! **
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